Broken Prayer

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Forgetting how the plan goes
He kneels down by the door
Shakes his head, he doesn't understand
How God could create such a man
'She's just a girl' his thoughts persists
'Just a whore. Why else would she be dressed like this?'
And just like that, he raises his hands
And prays to God, to see him as another man...

"Please stop me, and take me away
I don't want this to be another face I'll see everyday
If you are listening to me just now
Take these thoughts, these fantasies or just hold me down.
I can't find a reason to do this anymore
Please God, you must believe me
I am not this man they made me be
I am not a monster I do possess a heart
But I lost myself in one quite night
I want you to know that I am sorry
I never wanted this to be my story
I have no place to be, the days are too long
And I have always wanted somewhere to belong
I wanted a family and a little house by the sea
And like everyone I craved the lives of the movie scenes
I loved a girl when I was just a boy of sixteen
You see then, I had my life ahead of me
Now I don't even remember when I stopped being me.
But that doesn't matter anymore
For I have sinned and my soul is gone
But I have only one thing to ask of you
Please God, give this girl the courage to run away
Give her the strength to forget about this day
Give her a heart that loves and forgives anyway
Give her a family that cares for her and protect her
Give her a mother that teaches her to love for another
Give her a father that puts his trust in her
Give her the passion to go far in life
Give her the passion to find the love of her life
But most importantly give her the faith she'll need
To believe that people are good
Even those that make mistakes."
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