Confession of a common mind

I felt like there was something inside me that pulled me away, that made me hate people. I don't know why I felt different I felt like I couldn't explain myself to anyone no one understands me here, and I was struggling everyday with the routine of the normal life, I just couldn't do it and I wondered was I a coward? How many ordinary people living ordinary lives satisfied and pleased? Why couldn't I be one of them? Why couldn't I be on the other side of the table laughing and holding hands? just once I want to be wanted... I want to feel normal.

Over it

It's crazy this thing called a mood swing. Honestly I've had enough of it, I can't even stand me standing it anymore! So yeah college is kinda being it's old bitchy-self again and it could be the heat or the distance but I'm having a harder time adjusting right now. Really I feel competely pass it, I can't stand the people or the place, the fucking enviornment on its own is getting to me and I can't stand it! it's just like that saying goes I feel like shit and all I could do is just feel it.
What's another ranting post, aye? fuck it, I don't even care anymore, like I said...
I'm. Over. It.